On another note, I have decided for sure that I am traveling to visit My Mom in Virginia in June.-For about a week.Should be interesting....I am also getting out of town with my boyfriend at the beginning of June to go to his photography show at a gallery in Pheonix,AZ.-A nice 8 hour drive out of Los Angeles.I have been itching to travel lately.I don't hate Hollywood or anything.-But if you dont have anything going on here that keeps you busy 10 hours a day.-It gets old.-I think that goes for any place.-
I feel totally bored and like I am wasting away.It's fucking retarded.But I realize it's just this weird transitional phase I am going through.I have also realized, once again, that people I thought were friends...they are still friends...but we are on totally different paths.It's so strange because a lot of people I know are living in Los Angeles, yet I don't really see them that often....Not that we can, all of us are busy.It's just kind of weird.And it bums me out occasionally.Especially when I know often times people hang out or do things without inviting me.Which is totally fine.But after about 6 or 7 times it starts to make you feel like an asshole.-I feel defective.-
I think the only way to solve this dilemma is to continue to do my own thing.Write.Start playing music again. (I rehearse tomorrow)Get some sort of job thing going on when I come back from vacation in June.-Then I guess things will just fall into place where they need to.I really don't need bullshit in my life like I used to.The chaos gets old.The crazy people get boring.Where is my Joie De Vie?-It is somewhere around here.....I will let you know when I find it.
XO
Star
