Things that have bummed me out
1.People not being good friends to me.
2.Family not being like family to me.
3.Trying to find a job....
Ok instead of whining about all the b.s. that is going on - I am going to do something different and write about the things that are good in my life right now....
1.My boyfriend-true love and happiness.
2.I have goals.
3.I am alive.
4.I know what I want from life.Or at least I am pretty sure and I am ready to put it into motion.
5.I am changing for the better.
I am very excited.Tonite my boyfriend and I are staying at the Mondrian.And we are doing a photo shoot, we have not done one in a while so it will be a lot of fun ...
I think I have been extremely negative about things.-I realize that some people are just going to be oblivious and to point things out to them, is just a waste of time.-I don't want to perpetuate the bullshit.So I am rising above it and moving on with my own shit.-Fuck it.-
I am happy.I am very lucky.I have someone in my life that cares about me very much and is extremely supportive of me.My Mom loves me.And I think that is really all that matters.If you have a few people who really care.-You don't need a million people wasting your time.-I think when you are 25 you re-evaluate your life...and things fall into place differently.-I am really looking forward to accomplishing my goals for this year...And those are...
1.Write an album,put it out.
2.Painting.
3.School.(hmm)
4.Job
5.Being in crazy films
6.Traveling a bit.
7.Saving $,get a car.
Easier written than done.I will post of course when I feel like I am actually accomplishing something.--I think I have definitely has self-inflicted writers block lately.I need to overcome that.-This diary is helpful for that.So I will probably post a lot of non-sense.So BEWARE!
So yeah that is my fucking self help diatribe.God, I should be on Oprah.I would make her piss herself,though.-HA!-
I am happy now.I swear.I really do appreciate my life.See!-
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Star
XO