I started my period yesterday and I have calmed down about the issue of friendship.This is my feeling now:Let it go,if people really need me in their life they need to reach out to me for a change.This summer I am going to do things to improve myself and the people who are actively involved in my life....Not the in-active people that I try to reach out to.It's just a waste of fucking energy.I think that is totally healthy.
I think the age 25 is a year where you get rid of things you don't need in your life.You have a cleansing out experience.I think it is also an age where you are at your mid-twenties and you really want to figure out who you are.And sometimes the people,places and things/activities around you don't really match up.Then it's time to do a re-evalaution of your priorities in life.
As of now these are my *Priorities*:
1.Me-taking care of myself,independence,growth,self-improvement...because if I am not going to think of myself I will not be mentally healthy enough to deal with others.
2.My boy
3.Schooling/Career Goals
4.Saving Money
5.Enjoying life
If I think of more later I will post,but I think that sums it up.I sound like a fucking self-help wanna-be guru person.ugh.
Happy Passover.
XO
S.